Weird Couple o' Nights

I know this post is a little off from what I normally post, I just need to get this out there, cause...

Wow, has it ever been strange. I know I said something in the last post about believing spirits are with you of lost loved ones...well it's getting WEIRD!!! Dreams...things moving on me...noises...songs played in a certain order...finding things that no one's ever seen before.

WHAT IS THIS!?!

Alright, so Wednesday (2 days after Nikki, our dog passed on) I got into my car after work and the song She Thinks My Tractor's Sexy by Kenny Chesney was playing, I got in the car just as it came on. Now this song was my best friend's and my song. We had a dance to it and everything. So every time this song comes on the radio I know he's looking out for me. You may think that's weird, but it's in a way soothing for me to know he's still looking out for me.

The very next song that came on was Emerson Drive's With You. I just love this song, there's so much meaning behind every word of this song, especially the lyrics...

I'd give anything, anything to kiss your face
And I'd trade all my forever for one more day with you
Living, Breathing, Laughing
Feeling you here by my side

...so yeah you can see why this song means a lot to me. Loosing a loved one and wishing nothing more that they were right there by your side even if it were just for a moment longer. This song always gets me going.

Then the very next song after that was Carrie Underwood's See You Again...Well HELLO! Seriously, wanna talk about someone bawling their eyes out..just play these songs and I'm done. "I'll see you again, This is not where it ends, I'll carry you with me, Til' I see you again" ... I can't even explain this one... I can but I'll cry!

We've all been hearing noises in the house like Nikki is still here. It's comforting, yet it's unnerving. We live in an old house that's built over the foundation of a church (clue #1 why I'm likely so weird!), in the country. So hearing noises in the house is a little weird.

Now things in my room are moving. Things that haven't been touched in weeks are falling. My closet doors have been shut for a few days, and something fell from the top shelf ?! Something else that was buried is now somehow on the floor. A few months ago a bottle of 'Ferrari' cologne showed up...it's what my best friend always wore...?!

The night that Nikki passed, when I was finally able to start falling asleep I felt her curl up beside me, back to back like we did when she was a young pup (I'm talking like 12+ years ago)...

So are all these things supposed to be little signs? Or what is going on here?!

Anyways, after all that. I am planning on getting tattoos for both of them. Mackenzie and I were supposed to get matching tattoos, so I am going to get it with his initials and dates with it and I'll be getting Nikki's paw print on the side of my hip (always by my side). I'm hoping the tattoo artist will be able to do this, as I wasn't able to get an actual print, just a picture and a mold.

So after all the noise in my room tonight of things falling, I think I will curl up in my bed and likely have a 4th sleepless night in a row...I hope it's not busy at work this week!